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Why am i so afraid to use English in public

English, as we know English is the most powerful language to study and understanding and for our people we can see a lot of our people so shy and afraid to speak or use English in public. Why? everybody have their own reason, so do i. i have my own reason why i am so afraid to use English in public. I can speak English but no so good and can be proud and sometime i very like to speak English don't care where i am, but honestly i very afraid and shy to use English in public. when i use English in public i feel not so comfortable, always think about what other people think.

Another reason why i am so afraid to use English in public is because my grammar is not good and bad to compare with other people. i know who i am and my true self. Even thought i can speaking in English but not so perfect i still not good in this language because of the pronunciation, i always have a wrong pronunciation besides wrong grammar, because of both of this problem make me feel not comfortable, shy and mostly afraid to use English in public.

Besides that, my self-confident level also not higher, make me afraid to use English in public. When i use English in public, automatically i can be so nervous and shy. When other people speak to me, i understand but i could not reply because i don't know how to speak, in other words i have a bad communication or i can be stutter. As an example last friday i hang out with eight of my friends, before we back to hostel and still wait for two other friends i feel so sleepy and then i saw Starbucks, because so sleepy and tired i walk in to Starbucks and when the waitress welcoming me, i am stuck, blur and blank, because so tired my brain can't work properly and make me just stand up and smile. That situations make me shy with their impression.

Because all of this reason i am afraid to use English in public but i still trying to improve myself, myself confident level and my English to avoid me from always feel shy and afraid to stand up in front of people and use English in public.